dua kehilangan

a. Hilang handphone
b. Kucing kesayangan terbang ke syurga

Life does feel lonelier without these two. But like I said, kehilangan banyak mengajar kita banyak benda. That's how I see it, because suddenly I want to change my life course.

My mom is beginning to get sick. She has hard time to walk, hold things with her hands, she barely do things like she used to do years ago. Now my brother helps her with cleaning the house and helping dad too.

I know I should not stay with my job for too long, looking at the circumstance. I don't like it, anyway. So I need other way to keep living and find a way to be there for mom.

The only way I see is to continue studying. And one part time job to help my parents and myself. I don't know.

Thinking about doing master degree scares me. I was not even an A+ student, I'm afraid master degree is a lot more suffocating.

Like I said, I don't know what's best for me. If you know yours, you are very lucky.

I am still contemplating. Like a child.